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Health and Progress Update – My ABDL Life

Health and Progress Update

A little perspective looking back

I mentioned in a previous post that I had some seizures, depression etc. Now not to freak anyone out, I thought I’d get into those details a bit more.

Going back two years my mood was all over the place, and my coping skills were not all that great. I did not have the skill set I do today. I was diagnosed with ongoing depression, severe anxiety disorder, and migraines, all within a year in my early teens.

Over the years I have learned to cope, diapers being one of those coping mechanisms. The migraines are now well controller, rather than debilitating. Appearing only every couple months, or when huge storms cross my path.

The cerebral palsy, a very mild version affecting mostly dexterity of my left side, I’ve had since birth.

As you will see in later journal entries my coping skills have greatly increased and my need and reasons for diapers have changed distinctly over two years.

Health Update
4-17-10

Oddly enough my mood is fairly well controlled while diapered. Not so many highs or lows. I hate the extremes, more tempered, which is good. It’s the feeling of being safe and secure, and that everything is going to be okay, no matter what, that keeps helping day after day. As for the incontinence, I am not going for full, only urinary, although I am conscious of the smell none the less. I’ve already had a few public accidents, and no, I’m not into public humiliation.

The times have already come where it’s inconvenient to change, such as with friends and family, or at work. Out for long car rides, or long days. I’ve taken the approach of buying the best diapers I can afford, as I don’t want to spend my whole day changing, nor do I want the feeling of being soaked all day, and I’ve found more absorbency is always better.

I went through the challenge of how to diaper with only one hand, standing, or lying, and why oh why I would leak at night while sleeping on my side, until found that there was just the smallest of a crack between my legs that would leak, even though everything else was tight, and you literally have to pull snug until its as tight as can be then tape it up. I’ve found out the hard way never ever let yourself run out of diapers, ALWAYS have a backup case somewhere.

Always take the day bag with you, expect the unexpected. I’ve learned to urinate in just about every position I can think of while doing just about anything I can think of, getting ready, brushing my teeth, shaving, eating, driving, walking. I’ve learned the nasty way to avoid rashes, change often enough 45 min in a soaked diaper, and always clean AND dry off afterward. I’ve learned to shave daily down there, the Seiko clean from amazon is a life saver, as well as a time saver. I’ve had my share of wet beds, and can now sleep through the night in both wet sheets and wet clothes if need be. I’ve learned to stay on top of the dirty diapers, you don’t want your home smelling like urine.

Get the disks that cut down on odor for the diaper pail, and keep emptying it. I’ve learned not to load the trash too heavy with dirty diapers, you don’t want your trash bag tearing halfway to the garbage pail in front of your neighbors. I’ve learned always to carry an extra trash bag, just in case.

Lastly I’ve learned its easier to have a support group, a group of people you don’t have to hide this from, tell them what you need to, whether it be for fun, medically necessary, or an experiment, whatever it takes, GET THEM ON YOUR SIDE, It will lift a burden, help you when your feeling low, and will also hold you accountable for actually wearing.

As for my progress, where I’m at now and where I’m going, if anybody wants me to post updates on progress and if so, how often or has any other questions let me know. If anybody has any other suggestions on the road that I’m, how to get there, or quicker path, also let me know. (All natural, already went to one of the top hypnotists in
the world, cleared up many of the mental blocks that I was experiencing) My mood is becoming well controlled while diapered now. Not so many highs or lows. I hate the extremes, more tempered, which is good. It’s the feeling of being safe and secure that the diapers bring, and that everything is going to be okay, no matter what. It is this feeling that keeps helping day after day. As for the incontinence, I am not going for full, only urinary, although I am conscious of the smell none the
less.

I’ve already had a few public accidents, not fun, as I am not into the public humiliation. The times have already come where it’s inconvenient to change, such as with friends and family, or at work. Out for long car rides, or long days. I’ve taken the approach of buying the best diapers I can afford, as I don’t want to spend my whole day changing, nor do I want the feeling of being soaked all day, and I’ve found more absorbency is always better.

I went through the challenge of how to diaper with only one hand, standing, or lying, and why or why I would leak at night while sleep on my side, until I found that there was just the smallest of a crack between my legs that would leak, even though everything else was
tight, and you literally have to pull snug until its as tight as can be then tape it up. There is a fallacy that every disposable will leak on your side. Not true. Two things to look for are no space around the legs, and no extra space around the waist. Use a tape product called “Scotch Tear By Hand”. To take care of any extra slack. Easy to handle. Doesn’t stick to itself. Can handle with one hand. Best of all it’s clear, and wide! Means no messing up that print and can be used to reinforce tapes over long days.

I’ve found out the hard way never ever let yourself run out of diapers, ALWAYS have a backup case somewhere.

Always take day bag with you, expect the unexpected. I’ve learned to urinate in just about every position I can think of while doing just about anything I can think of, getting ready, brushing my
teeth, shaving, eating, driving, walking. I’ve learned the nasty way to avoid rashes, change often enough 45 min in a soaked diaper, and always clean AND dry off afterward.

I’ve learned to shave daily down there, the Seiko clean from amazon is a life saver, as well as a time saver. I’ve had my share of wet beds, and can now sleep through the night in one, and wet clothes if need be.

I’ve learned to stay on top of the dirty diapers, you don’t want your home smelling like urine. Get the disks the cut down on odor for the diaper pail, and keep emptying it. I’ve learned not to load the trash too heavy with dirty diapers, you don’t want your trash bag tearing halfway to the garbage pail in front of your neighbors. I’ve learned always to carry an extra trash bag with you on the way to the dumpster. That is if you haven’t already double bagged… just in case.

Lastly I’ve learned its easier to have a support group, a group of people you don’t have to hide it from, tell them what you need to, whether it be for fun, medically necessary, or an experiment, whatever it takes, GET THEM ON YOUR SIDE, It will lift a burden, help you when your feeling low, and will also hold you accountable for actually wearing. As for my progress, where I’m at now and where I’m going, if anybody wants me to post updates on progress and if so, how often or has any other questions let me know.

If anyone has any other suggestions on the road that I’m currently on, how to get there, or quicker path, also let me know. (All natural, already went to one of the top hypnotists in the world) who help clear up, and break through many mental blocks. I would not suggest going to see a live hypnotist unless you understand what your in for, and have also mastered hypnosis and meditation. Both of which are tools, not magic. I use them to reinforce goals, habits etc. and break through mental barriers. The Huge advantage of a live hypnotist is that you can do that in a very short period of time, rather than having to listen to a recording daily for months on end.

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Comments, questions, and concerns are always welcome.

-Blake-

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